Sunday, June 22, 2008
Lord take away the pain.
I don't know what's wrong, but it's been so long, yet everyday I still think of everything. The other day I was thinking, was everything I bought worth anything, or were they merely things that would never last? Ever since it all started again, I've just been spending and spending, but I really never expected much in return. I don't regret spending all that I have, but I just wonder if I could have put the money to better use.
The thought of it all pains me to this day. When I said no, it hurt, and till now it still does. I don't know why it does so much. Maybe it's because there's something I want now that's not there. When I said no, I meant it, but I never thought things would be this way.
There can only be one such of you in the world, but it just doesn't feel that way. It feels like you're not even there. It feels like you're not living up to what you are. I know, there are others that you've gone through more with, but can't we try to go through as much?
I really feel like not trying anymore, but each time I feel this, I tell myself, 'just once more, just once more.'
They are far and few, and yet I seem to be losing them more and more each and every day.
Posted by charles at 12:20 AM